Courage is being scared to death - and saddling up anyways. - John Wayne

Recently we have slowly been rearranging our house around. We figured we needed a change.

The first room we rearranged was our living room. It had looked pretty much the same since we had moved in 3 years ago. So we were more than ready for it to have a different look.

This is the way it looked before.

It looked really small then it actually is.

They way it looks now

Absolutely love the way it looks. It feels more open this way then it did the other way.

I'm hoping the next thing we rearrange is the dining room. We'll see how it goes. :)

Question time!

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears

1. I'm really scared of losing Joe. He's a volunteer firefighter in town and he absolutely loves it. He loves going on calls; especially fire calls or wrecks. The reason why I'm so scared is because when it comes to a fire call, he's the one you would see going into the burning building or house or whatever it is that is on fire. God forbid the roof collapses or something and he's in there. I have no idea what me and the boys would do. It's a scary thing to think about what could happen, but that's our reality.

2. I am terrified of clowns. I don't like going to a circus because they have them. Even Ronald Mcdonald freaks me out. When I was a little girl, I watched the movie IT. If you have ever seen that movie, especially when you were little, it can scar you for life. The whole concept of that movie gives me nightmares.

3. I'm scared that I'm not being the best mom I could possibly be to the boys. It terrifies me that they are going to grow up one day hating me. Even though I know I haven't done anything for them to hate me, I'm still scared that they will. I worry that one day when they are adults that they aren't going to forgive me or have a hard time forgiving me for something I've done when they were younger. I love them more than life itself, so I don't know what I would do if that ever came to pass. I tell them I love them every day throughout the day and give them hugs whenever possible. I tell them that they are talented, smart, loving, caring, sweet boys all the time because they are. I just don't want them to ever forget that no matter what I love them and would do anything for them.

I hope you all had an awesome Wednesday!

*Xirna*