No road is long with good company - Turkish Proverb

Hope everyone had a good Labor Day weekend!

We spent it hanging out with friends and family....

Saturday night we had dinner over at our neighbors house; and let me just tell you, IT WAS AMAZING!!

Some of the best food I've ever had, no joke. Wish I had taken a picture.

Sunday evening we ended up going to Worlds of Fun. Having Gold Season Passes is awesome, if I do say so myself. Free parking and free admission and discounts, you can't beat that!

Monday, we spent the morning at Oceans of Fun, last day of the season. We even got the boys on a water slide, which is a feat in itself and low and behold, they loved it. Well Brody loved it. Afterwards we headed over to Joe's parents house and had some yummy baby back ribs. They were to die for.

I guess, needless to say, we had a pretty eventful weekend. I love weekends like that!

Question for the night......

Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

 

1. Flying to Texas from the Philippines when I was 3. I remember sitting by the window and looking out and seeing tall buildings and at that age, I guess a whole new world. Moving from the Philippines to the U.S, it definitely is a different world.

2. One of my birthdays in Texas. I'm not quite sure if it was my 4th or 5th birthday. I just remember there were quite a few people and I would hide behind my mom's dress because I was shy. I was always told I was quite a handful so that shyness didn't last very long.

3. When I was 1st grade and in P.E class I had accidentally wet my pants. So my parents were called and they had to bring me an extra pair of clothes. It was embarrassing. I'm surprised I'm even sharing it now.

 

Hope everyone had a happy Wednesday!

 

*Xirna*

Children are a fresh start....they are us without all the mistakes. - Linda Poindexter

I had a crazy dream last night. Actually two of them and they were both about us having a daughter. Which don't get me wrong, I would love to have a daughter, but we have both decided that we done having kids. Both the boys are in school all day now and I'm currently looking for a job, which I've been waiting to do for the past 7 years now. 

The first dream, our daughter was maybe 6 or 7 months old, cute as a button and in the 2nd 1, she was maybe a year and half. Her name started with a D, I want to say it was Delilah, but I'm not quite sure. Both dreams were very descriptive. It's crazy to me how I could have 2 dreams in one night that consisted of us having a daughter. Maybe GOD is trying to tell me something, who knows. I've always heard you dream about what you are thinking about before you fall asleep but I wasn't thinking about a daughter. If I end up pregnant in the next few months, I'm going to look back on this post and say, "Yeah, GOD was definitely telling me something."

Tonight, after dinner I decided to make some brownie cupcakes. The only thing I would've done different would've been that I would've sprayed the cupcake baking cups because they stuck to them. Other than that, they were delicious!

Even the boys enjoyed one!

They thought they were delicious! As long as they thought it was delicious, that is all that matters :)

Question for the night is........

If you were an animal, what would you be and why?

If I were an animal, I think I would be a bird. That way I can fly to anywhere I want and not have a care in the world.

Hope you all had a great Friday and you have a great Labor Day weekend!

*Xirna*

The only person I can try to be better than, is the person I was yesterday. - Unknown

Describe 5 weaknesses you have

1. I can have a really bad temper. Honestly, there's times to where I think I might need anger management. Totally not kidding. I wish I was.

2. I can be very forgiving when I shouldn't be. I guess it's because I tend to see the good in people unless they have proven to me over and over again that they really don't have any good in them or just not good people in general. 

3. I have a tendency to want things done my way or I feel like it's wrong. Which I'm learning, isn't always a good thing. 

4. I put people around me first all the time. The ones I love tend to be more of my priority then myself. I have put my things that I want to do on the back burner for people because I feel that as long as they are happy it'll be ok. And it makes me happy to see other people happy. Especially seeing the ones that I love and care for being happy.

5. I feel the need to protect our boys all time. I feel like I'm suffocating them at times. There have been things that I haven't let them do in the past because I'm afraid something is going to happen to them. Some people have said that it's no different then it was 20 years ago or 15 years ago or even 10 years ago. When actually, it's totally different. You don't really know who to trust anymore with your kids. We send them off to school thinking, "They'll be safe in school. They have polices put in place." But yet, schools are shot up. If schools aren't getting shot up, kids are getting bullied for being different, or other kids are somehow jealous of them. And it doesn't necessarily happen in schools. It happens in playgrounds, in your neighborhood, in your own backyard. At times I just wish I could keep them around me and away from the mean, cruel world it has become.

Hope everyone had a good Thursday!

*Xirna*

Might not be tonight, tomorrow or the next day..but everything's gonna be ok - froot loop inspired by Drake

It's been a busy few days here at the Spear household that I haven't really been able to blog as much as I would like. Life tends to happen when you least expect it to. 

I'm still in the process of finding a job. I've applied at so many places and I have posted my resume on Indeed, Careerbuilder and Monster. I've been getting calls, but they either pay on commission or they are too far away to drive there and back. I'm still hoping and praying for something and still applying. Everyone has been telling me to be patient but it's really hard when you really want it and you are more than ready to do it. I'm just ready for us to start living comfortably instead of just getting by. Being able to not have to worry about money so much, be able to go on vacation somewhere nice once a year or so, be able to give our boys things they want from time to time, have more money in the bank. Just be able to live comfortably. Joe and I both know it will happen one day, we just have to patient. And the patient word  rears its ugly head again. Apparently it's something we need to have nowadays. I'm usually not very good with being patient but I've learned to be over the years. It's kind of second nature to me now. Things will be better, I believe that and I have faith in that.

Saturday, Joe and I ate at the Latin Bistro. It was really good food, but unfortunately our waiter, wasn't all that great. Apparently he had just started and he was being trained. Now, I've never been a waiter at any time in my life so I don't know how normal it is to give the wrong order to a person knowing that the order was supposed to be for another table that got there before the table you gave it to and then give the wrong desert. All this while you are being trained. Needless to say, even though the food was good, the experience, not so much, probably won't be going there again. Although the waiter that was training the new waiter was really nice and was nice enough to explain the situation to us. 

This is what I ordered. It was really delicious but I could've done without the big chunks of onion. Not really an onion fan, unless they are cut up really small and you can't even really taste them.

Aren't our little babies precious? This makes my heart smile every time I pass by our refrigerator. Of course I hung them up, why wouldn't I? It makes me such a proud mommy.

    You haven't seen The Hunger Games, you should. It's a pretty awesome movie. I watched it for the 2nd time Saturday and Joe watched it for the 1st time. He liked it! He said he could watch it all night long. He even wants to read the book. I did my good wife deed for that night. GO ME!

On to the question.....

What are 5 passions you have?

1. Being a mommy. This is definitely on the top of my list. It really is every emotion wrapped into one thing. It can take a lot out of you and also give you the greatest joy you will ever experience. There is nothing like it.

2. Dancing, I absolutely love it. Even if it's just dancing in our living room or with the DIAMOND GIRLS, it's freedom to me.

3. Reading, when I have the time that is. I'm currently listening to SAFE HAVEN by Nicholas Sparks on CD. So far, it's been really good. Can't wait till the movie comes out.

4. Arts and Crafts. I love making things. Here recently though, I just can't seem to find the time. I guess that's why I'm such a fan of Pinterest. Best website in the world for that kind of stuff.

5. Taking pictures of the boys. When they are older, I can look back at those pictures and see how far they have come. I know they will change the world one day. The world won't know what hit them.

I hope everyone had an awesome weekend.

Till next time!

*Xirna*

The only thing that can stop you is the doubt that you carry in your mind. - Chae Richardson

It's been so busy around here since the boys started school that my blogging hasn't really been an every day thing. I will do my best to make up for that.

The boys are loving school. As for me, I'm trying to find a job. I've been applying every where. The waiting, is not fun at all. So, please pray that something comes up for me.

I've been experimenting with cooking lately. The other day, I cooked some chicken legs in beef broth and mashed potatoes and added some beef broth with it too. It was a hit! Everyone loved it. I wish I had pictures. Tonight I'm making chicken breasts with seasonings and beef broth (sensing a theme here) and added some onions and put it all in the crock pot. Let me tell you, it smells so good.

Hopefully it tastes as good as it smells.

Question for the day is.......

What is your dream job, and why?

 

I have mentioned this before, but honestly my dream job would be a fashion designer. I would love to have my own fashion line and own my own store that sells my clothes. I think it would be such an awesome feeling seeing someone, while we are out and about, wearing a piece of clothing I designed. I can't imagine how that would feel. If I had the money to do all that, I would do it right now. I would find an awesome location and get started.

Hope you are having an awesome day!

*Xirna*

The happiest of people dont necesarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way - Unknown

I know it's been a couple days since I last blogged, sorry about that. This weekend has been a busy one for us. 

Friday night, I went out with some of my favorite ladies. 

It was so much fun hanging out and talking with them. It was something I needed for awhile now. And I have to say, these girls are amazing. Love them all to pieces!

Saturday, Joe and I went to the Ethnic Festival. I love how many cultures we have in this city. There was a lot of good food and they were cheap too. Free parking and only $3 to get in, you can't beat that. It was a fun little date for us. Having those times when it's just the two of us helps our relationship a lot because we rarely have those opportunities, so when we do, we try to take advantage of them.

Next weekend, we might be headed down to the Lake of the Ozarks for the Shootout Boat Races. I'm super excited for that and hoping we get to go. I will definitely keep you posted.

The question for tonight is......

What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

1. Our boys, they are absolutely the most amazing kids on the planet. I'm not just saying that because they are our kids but because they really are. They are so caring and loving. They worry about other people and how they are doing. They have such big hearts at such a young age, it makes me feel like I'm doing something right.

2. Joe, he works so hard for us. He does his best every day to be an amazing father to our boys. He's a hard worker,and he has a big heart. He has dreams that he really wants to happen, and I have no doubt in my mind they will.

3. My family, that includes Joe's family as well. I don't know what we'd do without them. If it weren't for our families, I don't know where we would be. They have helped us out so much. I wish there was a way we could repay them, but whatever we did to repay them, wouldn't be close to enough.

4. My friends, I have some of the best out there. Unfortunately, in the past 3-4 years, I have learned who my real ones are. The ones I have now, I wouldn't trade for anything.

5. It may sound cheesy, but God does. He has blessed us in so many ways. It's a really good feeling when you know you have someone up there watching over you.

Hope everyone's weekend was good and you had a little fun.

Till next time...

*Xirna*

What we do in life, echoes in eternity... - Gladiator

Today was the 1st day of school for the boys. Kaden is now in 2nd grade and Brody is in kindergarten. I can't believe how fast time flew by. Let alone the summer. For some reason, it was so much harder to see them go this time around. Maybe it was because Brody is our last one to go into kindergarten and that's kind of a big deal. I honestly didn't think it was going to be so hard because I've done it before. Walking out of the school, I honestly felt like I was going to hyperventilate. I could feel my heart coming out of my chest. I wanted to go back in there and get him, but that wouldn't do any good. I ended up calling Joe to calm me down a little. Needless to say, he did a good job. I do wish he could've been there though.

This morning before taking the boys to school, I took a picture of them holding a piece of construction paper and it said what they wanted to be when they grow up. Love Pinterest for this idea!

I plan on making the pictures an 8x10 and framing them and doing it every year. We are excited to see if what they are wanting to be changes any. With their dad being a firefighter, I'm betting it won't.

On to today's question.....

List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could. 

1. Work harder in school. The choices you make now, will effect your future.

2. Finish college, graduate with your degree. If you don't, you will regret it. TRUST ME!

3. That heartache you will feel, it won't last. It will get better. You will learn from it and move on.

4. Keep in touch with your friends once you graduate. Call them, visit them, hang out with them. They are the best ones you could ever have.

5. Don't believe what your head is telling you. People won't be better off if you are gone, they won't be happy and nobody will be throwing a party. Remember, you are loved!

6.  Be brave! Don't worry so much what other people are thinking about you. They don't matter.

7. When you get a job, save the money. You will be glad that you did.

8. Be kinder to mom and papa. They mean well. They love you unconditionally and they just want whats best for you and for you to be happy. Once you have kids, you will understand.

9. Spend time with your family more and not just mom, papa and Zekey. I'm talking about Tita Lumen and Tito Jim too. Offer to take them out somewhere or just talk about stuff. You don't have to talk about anything important. Spending some time with all of them will be good for you.

10. Don't be in a hurry to grow up. There's plenty of time for that. Just be 16 and enjoy it.You will miss it when it's gone.

Hope everyone had a good Thursday!

*Xirna*